"My amma"

Rap is such a sweetheart. He asks me to play with him and kiss him repeatedly. Randomly he would just wrap his arms around my neck and hold me tight, even while sleeping. He'd come close and hug me tight. Other times he will go "my amma", "my mama", "I want amma", "you are mine", "my mummy" with so much affection. It melts my heart. You are my life rap. Saying like these to me makes me feel so happy. Who else could say like that to me if not you, rap.
Last night, rap was playing with daddy and I went to call rap. It was time for bed. Rap runs towards me and hugs me tight. So I kiss him few times and tell him, it is time for bed. He asks for more play time and gets the extra time. He held my face and kisses me on my cheek "muaah" with the kissing sound. Oh, so adorable. I love that kiss rap. He saw me happy and repeated a few times. Walks away and seeing me still kneeling on the floor. Walks right back and kiss my cheeks again. I cherish all these beautiful moments.
Rap wouldn't always offer kisses. He would turn away at time when asked or just choose not to do. I respect that of cause. The decision is his to give that peck or not. When he's ready, he would. I have always told him, you don't have to kiss someone to get something from them. Whenever someone says, "give me a kiss, I will give you the item", should never make you want to kiss them. To kiss or not is rap's personal choice. No misusing his childhood to get that kiss. Even I wouldn't kiss and uncle or aunty I've known for years, why should rap?

Anyway, rap is sweet. He is generous and kind too. Keep the good with you rap.

First entry to 2016

Hi everyone,

Happy new year 2016 to all readers. May you have the best year ever. How was your celebration?

I didn't do much but I had my whole time with my family. This is more worth while.

Times have changed from heading out for countdowns, looking forward to new year eve and having meals with friends outside, heading back home past midnight to more home centric. Since, having a child and being the 24/7 parent, I never left rap under another person's care because I wanted to head out for new year eve countdown. This year is not any different. I know I can head out again when rap is older and at a certain age, rap will party with his friends and look forward to such celebrations. 

On new year day morning, we went to temple to start off the year with God's blessings. We spent about an hour at the temple before heading back home. On our way home, rap wanted to buy McD Frozen Fanta. So we went off to get that. Had lunch at home, cooked by my dad.

Rap refused to nap after 1.5 hours of lying in bed. I has having flu and needed rest but no luck because rap did not nap. I then decided to make the day a little worthy by depositing in bank account on new year. Saving is important. I felt satisfied doing so on the first day of the year and hopefully continue throughout the year. On our way back, I bought pizza for dinner. Daddy only returned home about 7 pm after attending a talk. Rap and I enjoyed some cartoon before hitting the bed.

I usually don't make any new year resolution but this year I thought of making some simple resolutions. Such resolutions which seem more realistic for me. 

1. Eat more fruits and vegetables.

2. Exercise frequently. 3 times a week; may it be jog, walking 10000 steps, some yoga, or playing in the park.

3. Get my 2 publications for my studies.

I hope to remind myself on these resolutions to stay healthy and also guide rap to healthy lifestyle, not just confined within the house but to go out and enjoy at a park or playground. Yesterday, we had a great time at the playground. I jogged while rap played on the swing with a friend. After every round jogging around the playground, I would stop and swing rap. His feet is not touching the ground to swing himself. Then after, we played a ball game with 2 other kids. I was tired from all the running, catching, throwing and kicking of the ball. Nevertheless, I felt good from the play and exercise. 

I am responsible to make everyday of my year beautiful, memorable and worth while. It is also an important year of my study. Never stop until you reach what you aimed to achieve. But that does not mean I won't take a break in between. All work and no play is not fun. 

Happy Blessed New Year, 2016.